Book-Will Hunting!

24.

It's more than just feeling disappointed, when you get to a point when you're nowhere near, where you've in vision yourself to be in the time table that you've well thought off, and laid down for your life. I must have been really bad in geometry that I badly skewed up the lines that I've drawn for my dreams & goals versus my reality. My goals are sky rocketing up the limitless horizon while my reality is taking a frenetic nose dive down into an abyss.
And so another year of me had passed, and my life still feels like it's boxed in, stuck and rotting. It's feels like my youth is running away from me and I can't even chase after it. I think I've paid my dues but where is the promise of greener pasture when the only grass that I had only held is the one you smoke both literally & figuratively.

It kills me when I'm in a situation when I don't have control, when I know I can't do anything about things. That right now even though I don't believe in fate, destiny and all that stuff, all I can do is some wishful thinking.

From the song by the smiths that goes "Haven't have a dream in a long time, seen the life I had can make a good man turn bad, so Please, Please, please let me get what I want this time"

It's still a birthday and it still calls for something. Thank you for those who remembered and reminded me on what today is. I'm sorry if I did'nt respond to any of your queries but I'm not blowing any candles today and also I decided to make this day a Liver friendly day, no alcohol to consume today. I'm making a vow starting this year that I wont be celebrating anything for myself until I get my own paycheck. Until Independence day.
Gabby's offers was tempting but I'm tired of receiving charity. The thought was all but enough, no gifts wanted seriously!
I think I'm in this stage that Erickson called Generativity vs Stagnation!!!


All I wish for is that I wouldn't have to wish for what I want. That I can make it happen.

500 days of summer

Summer: I just don't feel comfortable being anyone's girlfriend, I don't actually feel comfortable being anyone's anything.
I like being on my own, relationships are messy and peoples feelings get hurt, who needs it?We're young we're living in one of the most beautiful cities in the world might as well have fun while we can and save the serious stuff for later
Tom: What happens if you fall in love?
Summer: You don't believe that do you?
Tom: It's love it's not Santa Claus?
Summer: What is that word even mean? I've been in relationships and I don't think I've never even seen it.
There's no such thing as love it's fantasy.
Tom: Well I think you're wrong.
Summer: Ok, well what is it that I'm missing?
Tom: I think you'll know when you feel it.
Summer: I guess we can just agree to disagree.



After 500 days
Tom: You never wanted to be anybody's girlfriend and now your somebody's wife?
Summer:Surprised me too.
Tom: I don't think I'll ever understand that. I mean it doesn't make sense.
Summer: It just happened.
Tom: Right, but thats what I don't understand, what just happen?
Summer: I just woke up one day and I just knew.
Tom: Knew what?
Summer: What I was never sure of with you.

Arms held aloft.

the most difficult question to ask and answer is why?

It's seems as though its been so long since I've seen blue skies, since I've seen the sun & since we could say we had a good weather.

I've been around death before and I can say that somehow I've gotten used to it but not in these numbers and this horribly, tragic way of death.
Pepeng claimed at least more than a hundred souls today.
Body bags kept coming in & out, victims all covered in mud due to ruble, faces and bodies all bruised & swollen up, cold and hardened as they arrived as they were buried alive by the landslides caused by the nonstop rain fall.
Families in grief crying on each others shoulders all giving out their version of the story on how things happen.
Lifeless bodies kept piling up in the morgue, people all around desperately trying to find their love ones amongst the recovered bodies that is lined up for identification while some are still anxiously waiting for the next one to arrive. Tears everywhere!

Why did this happen?why us?why now?why my son?why my daughter?why my sister?why my family?
Where just some of the screams of aches by the families left behind by the victims.

Tragic times like this, I rather not ask the same question because whoever or whatever the answer is I probably wont agree with it anyway.

Ondoy

No one could have predicted the magnitude of this natural disaster.
It was like Mother nature got fed up and just hit the "flush button" and so she did. Bottom line is if we can't take care of mother nature then she will take care of us and we now know how rude & powerful she can be.


So many helpless people in the news. Let's all do what we can.

The 50.00 Peso Camera.

From the ukay-ukay I'm calling this one the "mimicker" as it mimics that of an action sampler. It does not take 4 photos is sequence like the sampler but i'll do.

Worth: P50.00



Action Sampler
Worth: P2,300.00

had an eargasm!

architecture in helsinki - fumble

Confessions of a Lovaholic?

He is puffing on his half consumed lit cigarette like its his last, hands shaking, his nervous, tongued tied. His heart is pounding a little more & harder than usual, he can feel his heart flutter,he has nape pain, sort of nauseous & is feeling a little dizzy, sort of manifesting signs of his usual hypertensive attacks but nothing can seem to wipe out the smile on his face.

He's like a bomb just waiting for the right moment for detonation and explode to blurt it all out there with a sweeping motion.
He thinks he has everything in control. He hides in his imaginary made up camouflage suit like he's in the jungle and everything is all good and that no one seems to notice but he must have had used a strong bleach to wash his suit because its fading and going bland and its just getting harder and harder to just blend in.
Good thing for him "Captain Obvious" took a long leave of absence that no one is saying "DOH!!!" amongst the clueless but are they really clueless?

Tic-tac.. tic-tac his under time pressure...

Let's see if Mr. Amlodipine can shine under bright lights and be Mr. Clutch. WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!